Today's kinda like a roller coaster ride for me again..
Well..today..woke up .. bath , washup everything..online com..
den saw dear onlined..tok to her..den she said..go read e private blog..
and so i went..wen i read it..my heart totally sink..i was veri moody..i didnt hab
mood to do anything..not even playing games or tokin to ppl..
as..in my option..it was a note of disappoinment in mi towards my dear..
and..she began to afk from com..and i couldnt do much ): all i can do is pray tat she
wont leave me T_T and to remain as calm as i can get .. [ which i couldnt.. ]
i began to cry..cried till my eyes were swallen..and red.. haiz..
but in the end..she said tat..
"we made a promise & im not staying because of th promise but just that i really love you , i dont care whad others said .
so , yeah , i wont leave you & even if one day i leave you,th promise we made will not be gone
cus if i leave you for some reason , & we love each other deeply
at th end , we will be back together.. "
Tis is wad she told me..and i was forgiven..bt during tis period of time wen she ingored mi
till e time she told me tis..i kept blaming myself for nt being a good bf..i kept punching e wall
and my left fist began to bleed alittle..and i noe..its a dam freaking silly thing to do..bt..
its e onli way i could punish myself..): cos i made her feel sad or angry countless times..
haiz..now..she still treats mi abit coldly..bt i guess she juz ned time to cool down? >< haiz
i am realli sry dear ): .. i nv made u happy in ur life for the whole day before >.<
haiz..shall end my post here =] back to stone-ing in msn~
byes all!
take care..!
I'll always love u no matter wad..no matter wad ppl say about u or wad..
i'll ingore .. cos i realli love u..and i hope u will tc of urself >.<
got fever muz drink mre water <: muacks!
love u ttm.! =] hope u wont be so coldly towards me le ):
